Long time no Blog

Just recalled I had a blog on here. Let me catch up a bit.

So last I posted I went clubbing and such.  A lot has changed.

After summer was up I went back to California and had to go back to work and school.

My boyfriend and I are no longer dating. Didn't want to do a long distance he said.

A beloved co-worker of mine passed away. She will forever be in my heart. I'm glad she is no longer in pain though.

School is a bit blah for me. i have a class that an introduction class to computer programs you would use in graphic design, stuff I can easily learn on my own faster than I'm being taught.

Work is a bit blah too. Been working there for about 3 years now. Finally at that point where it feels like a dead end job.

Good stuff now.
I've been pushing myself to do better with my artwork for my comic. I'm getting a little further in the process...but still got a lot of work ahead of me. It's hard to do it by yourself.  I have tried getting a script writer, twice. both bailed on me. I do want to at lest try one more time, this time looking for a co-author to help with the planning.


Also. I'm moving back to Texas! As much as i hate the weather there, I really miss my family. Dad has a new place and I'm moving in with him. I'll have my own room too. I hope by being with my love ones I'll be more motivated to get through college. Dad and I talked about it and found a school with an actual degree for animation. Not a certificate.  BA, MA, even a PH.D! I could be Dr of animation. Love the title.  I plan to go to a cummunity college for the basic junk you have to have. (boo...) and then go to this college for the fun art stuff. Once I get my BA, gonna look for a job ad work up to a Ph. D

I gotta be a good infulence to my baby brother.

Speaking of siblings, both my siblings have been doing great I hear. Little bro in school, sister and I are talking to each other again. I missed her a lot. We talked about fun things to do together. I can't wait.  Be so great to see them all. I missed my family. As much as I love my grandparents, I sometimes feel like a ghost here. Don't get me wrong, they are nice people. Just don't really connect with them much.

Clubbing

So i had a very fun weekend once again.

Friday I got to go to the mall with my boyfriend to buy something next for a concert we were going to see. A nice corest top with gloves, earring, and a necklace.  Then we went to see The Dark Knight Rises.  Wonderful movie. Ann Hathaway really surprised me in it as CatWoman.  The ending almost made me cry.

Then we headed to his place, orgiinaly planing to go to a bar but one of his friends forgot the his id so we simply went to my boyfriend's place to watch more movies. I now no longer have to say "I have never watch Fight Club." lol though due to how late it was, i only got to watch half of it. we were all pretty tired.




Sunday, ah Sunday. I got my first. My first club and my first concert.  After a stressful day of it getting cancle, uncancle, cancled and then uncancle. (car troubles, timeing confusion ecct) we managed to get everything worked out so we could go. I dolled my self up in the goth attire, all giddy inside. My boyfriend looked awesome too with spendex and matching bow tie.

So we get  into the club, stamps on our arms.  It was a small club which I actually like because you couldn't get lost in there so easily and it wasn't over whelming. There were two different dance rooms and upstairs lounging area. There was also a patio for smoking.  i was really liking the setting and atmosphere. Everyone who was there had dressed in their own unique way. I saw goth, punk, lolita, and even a bunny raver and a guy in a panda suite. I was trying very hard to noob out and be all giddy at everything, making it obvious it was my first time. Like a kid in a theme park for the first time.

I got to try an alcoholic beverage and actually finished it. Usually I try a sip and be turned off. This one was a bit bitter with a kick but I toughed it out to not be such a wimp. As I sip on the drink slowly, my boyfriend and I walk around and look about. A random chick started chatting with me and showing me pics she took of the sky with her phone. Pretty sure she had a few too many drinks but it was still pretty fun to just randomly chat with a stranger.

After that random chat, my boyfriend and I went to where the perfomance was about to start. I was really excited to see Voltaire. I use to listen to his music back in highschool.

As we're waiting, a random guy walks up to us and starts chatting with my boyfriend and even petting his facial hair. i found this very amusing to watch because my bf was going along with it like the two were buddies for ages. I have to admire him for that. i would had freaked out a little if a stranger started to touch my face.


Finally the lights dimm and the man of the hour comes out. He was made jokes, played his guitar and sang some good songs. Most I hadn't heard, a few I manage to fake sing along and than he sang my favorite. "When you're evil." i had so much fun.

After the performance, Voltaire went to sell some trinkets and cds. I wanted to wait till the line die down before hopping in. So I decided to try out some new things I hae never done before.

one was singing on a stripper pole. They had one just next to the stage and one guy was already trying it out. According to some, pole dancing is like having sex with it. Course i have little skills in that. lol. so after the guy finished, I tried it out. Yeah very epic fail. I could spin a little but couldn't really figure out any tricks. My bf did much better on it. that was hot.

After pole dancing we danced on the stage a bit, moving to the beat. He was a much better dancer than i was. I had fun dancing and watching the other dancer move. Some were stomping, some were swaying, some were shaking. Lights were flashing, smoke was everywhere. It was amazing to watch. After some dancing, we took a bit of a break, sitting down for a minute.  i then went to dance a bit more by myself. My bf snuck in some snapshots of me dancing. lol

finally we went to the counter where Voltaire was selling some stuff. I really wanted a necklace. As I'm standing there, waiting, he is talking to other fans, shaking hands and signing postcards. He makes a joke to the gothic rave pony girl about her mask, saying he didn't smell that bad. He jokes a bit more to all of us and I just stand there staring. I really had no clue what to say to him without sounding like a goop. 
Voltaire then said this after talking to the gothic rave bunny about her outfit. "Why mix up themes? Can't you just pick one."
To which I open my mouth and said "Weren't you the gay Dracula that just played some country?"(he made a country theme song that was very funny and he kept referencing himself as dressing up like a gay dracula.)
 He looks at me for a minute shakes his head. "I hate getting pwned by kids."
I FREAKING PWNED VOLITAIR!
How awesome is that? I could't help but laugh.
 I bought a necklace and cd. Then my bf and I said our goodnights and went our seperate ways. Such a wonderful night. 

collaberate?

I've been debating about finding some one to collaborate with ideas on.  I have three stories forming in my head but I can't get anywhere on my own. I need a brain I can bounce ideas off of and who can challenge or add to the story idea.  The challenging thing is finding someone on the same time zone and schedule and some of the same interest in the idea.

Family memembers: as much as I love them, they don't have the creative juice in them and need to focus on their lives. (school, work and such)

Friends: i got some friends who are creative but some don't seem all too intrested in my ideas or they have their own little projects to work.  Plus theres the nasty side effect of working with friends causing the friendship to sour. (so I hear anyways)

So what should I do? Find some random stranger online? Someone from school in the same art classes as I am? It feels risky and I tend to take a while to open up to new people. I'm also iffy about me being too controlling or too much of a people pleaser. I either want it to go my way exactly or I want everyone to be happy. It's tough. A very tough choice.

Should i perhaps find someone who is creative but is stronger in the sence of writing or someone who is a stronger artist than I am?  Should I hire someone? I'm not sure what to do but I do know, having someone I can bounce ideas off of helps. I think better when I talk aloud.

Update on life.

Now while I may not be getting much art work done for my comic, I have been having the best summer ever!

I have jet ski, gone to a drive thru movie to see TED (hilirous), tried a new hair do, and the best part  is I got to meet up with an old highschool buddy who is starting to become more than a buddy. It's strange how in only 4 dates this guy seems to be making me the happiest girl in the world. I seriously  have never been this happy and ages and I can't even figure out what it is about this guy. He's funny, charming, sweet, good looking, and just plain kick ass. It kind of sucks that I'm only in Texas for a short time...Soon I will have to return to Cali...to that tiny room...

New song

MUTE

Voice so soft as if trying to speak through walls.

Stumbling over words, making no sense at all.

I try to express what’s on my mind

But my brain and mouth are not on time

I wish I can easily say what’s in my heart

But my words always seem to fall apart

Seems so silly to keep something I hardly use

Seems so silly, it’s gonna turn into a rusty tool

I should just cut the cord and give it away

But  there’s so much I wish to I could say

I wish I could explain why I feel blue

I wish I could express how I feel towards you

Sometimes I do but my words fall on deaf ears

I wish with you I could share my dreams and fears

Seems just so silly to keep what I hardly use

Seems so silly to keep this rusty tool

I should just cut this cord and throw it away

But theres just so much I long to say

Seems so silly, just darn right silly to  keep what I don’t use

Seems so silly, my voice is a rusted tool

I just want to cut the cord and throw it away

But theres just so much I long for all to hear me say

Rewrite and new ideas

Ok so I'm not too happy with my story for many reasons.

one happens to be one chapter idea I had is a bit too similar to an episode of Thundercats I saw recetnly. In the show they also have a blue tech stone that is being used as a battery for the city which was what I was planning on doing in my story.

Another reason is I think I'm focusing too much on making its own fantasy world with its own tools and such and hardly focusing on the story and characters.

The characters are also another reason why I'm changing things up. They're a bit flat.

I also feel like I'm going over board trying to be as creative as possible on every little detail with out looking at the big picture first. My dad actually pointed this out to me when i showed him the storyboard animation I had originally planned to do for class. I have to say he's right. I need to ease back a bit and make sure I state the message of the story first.

So I'm focusing on making sure I know what the message and theme of the story would be, pulling back a bit on the fantasy. I need to keep in mind that it doesn't have to be super elaborate to be a good story.



Now while I'm working on M.O.P.E.D. Still, I started getting new ideas to save for later. I really wish I knew how to multitask so I could make all the ideas but that may cause me to burn out. I gotta ease my way in to things. If i rush on ideas, it'll be a very horrible creation.

The Theif and The Cobbler: Recobbled

Not sure how many people know about this movie.  It's a wonderful movie that sadly could not reach its full glory do to many different reasons. You can read about it here Link

Luckily we can see what was orginaly planned on Youtube.

I fid it beautifully done. I love how the main hero says nothing through the movie till the very end(though the voice is a bit too deep for him XD) You can tell what he's thinking just by his face.  I hope one day they can remake this movie the way it was intended...actually you know what? No hoping! I'm gonna see that it's redone! This is too wonderful of a animation to let it dissaper.